God I am so discouraged tonight. I just don't understand what I am doing wrong. I don't understand why these teens don't like me. I am pouring myself into them and doing all I can do, yet when it comes to youth night, a fun outing, or spiritual event they don't come. Friday night we had the senior high night out and only 3 came, tonight for the TLW rally only one "wanted" to come and we had to drag the other three to get them to go. I hear things like "they're too busy," "the have to do this school event," or worse yet and the one that hurts the most-"they went to another church with so and so." Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for the ones who do come, but I am discouraged.
God I don't know what to do, am I too hard on them because I want them to see the awesome things God has to offer and become all that they can for Him? Am I not fun enough? Do I preach too long? Do I not play enough games? Is it because I sometimes side with their parents or try to help them see that we as adults (parents too) do love them? I have been trying everything I know how to do and yet they still don't come or they bring the mood down when they do come. What am I doing wrong? Are they trying to push me out? Do they want us to leave? We are trying so hard to show them we care and spend time with them as much as we can, but something isn't working.
I know you aren't done with us here yet. God, I am very thankful for the kids who do come. The one's that do show up when we have an event have a great time as do we when they are here-all of them are awesome, middle school and high school. God use these kids to help us break through and have something great happen with our ministry.
God I'm not going to give up, but I am just discouraged tonight, please touch my heart this evening, I need your love tonight.
God I won't give up on these kids, but please show me something...as FFH would sing, "Lord move...or move me."
Your child Matt